I try not to let myself get overwhelmed too often, and I admit when I am overwhelmed even less... but let's be honest... I'm overwhelmed!
I currently feel like my whole world is out of control. I'll find out one week from today whether our lives will forever be changed by an additional child... uh, teenager. I have no control over this! I can't do anything to make us any more likely to become her parents. I simply have to trust that the state of Idaho will make the best decision for her placement and that God will do his will. It's comforting to know that God has a plan for her and for our family... but honestly it's also difficult having no idea what that plan is!
Meanwhile we're still surrounded by unfinished projects in our current home, including a broken toilet in our main bathroom that hasn't been working for about a month now (are any of you plumbers?), a ceiling that needs to be drywalled and textured (uh, we don't exactly know how to do this), a door that needs to be cut to the right size so it can open fully, cabinets that need to be painted, a few walls that still need to be finished (anyone have one of those ladders that you can use to paint stairwells?)... you get the hint? Lot's of stuff, lots of money, little time...
We're also highly considering putting both of our homes on the market in well, a bad market. We know we'll be in need of an additional bedroom here very soon because Leeann and Titus can't share a bedroom forever and we found a house that is everything (well almost) we could want in a great neighborhood at an incredible price (incredible price for the house but still stretching for our budget). In order for us to be able to afford it though God needs to do some huge things. Like, sell both of our houses quickly, by owner, in a bad market for a specific price.
On top of that there are several other crazy thing going on in our world that are all coming together to make me feel like my world is just plain out of control!
So, there you have it: my confession. I'm overwhelmed! Small group got cancelled tonight so Rob and I have plans to sit down and write down all that we need to do so we can start plucking through some of our tasks and make some attempts at feeling like we're making progress in the midst of craziness. Yeah, we'll see if that helps, or adds to my frenzy!